I have always been attracted to drawing, but it has in fact never been my biggest passion in life. My income is not from art actually. Whenever I get ideas, I often want to visualize them. Sometimes I draw just to make myself calm and live in my own world. My first encounter with digital art was in 2009 when I went to a media school. I thought it was awesome and there were so many people in my class who were mindblowingly skilled at drawing with graphics tablet. Before this, I had never really taken the art of drawing seriously, hell, I didn't do it before early 2013, no joke. My first ever digital drawing was an awkward-looking Mongolian Death Worm(sorry, I don't have the picture anymore). My second or third drawing was the BioAlien, which you can find in my gallery. It was strange to use colors and don't stare at a paper. I didn't have any experience with colours or anything, so it was a brutal transition.
One day, early 2010, I discovered some stunningly realistic drawings from a then to come , comicbook, and the same artist had made one of the best Venom-pictures I had seen. It was Dan Luvisi's art. That really shook me. I asked myself how it was even possible to be this good? Luvisi being an inspiration(still is, I love his work and dedication), it also caused me to make my first major mistake as an artist. I really didn't step out of my comfortzone and didn't really try to experiment new tecniques to hone my own personal touch to drawings. I really tried to make my drawings super realistic without any success. I was a real bonehead when it came to receive critiques. I took anything as harsh comments. Which I now know is really damaging if you want to become a better artist. If we wind forward to 2013, during the autumn. It went up for me! I saw that all this ego-based misleading had really caused me to not make any progress. It was especially anatomy that people said could be better, as narrow is I was, I didn't really listen. Some said that learning and using construction really helps, but I thought it looked boring and unnecessary. After at least giving it a try, I slowly found out how useful and important it was. All those years I had not been aware of the fundamentals.
I was becoming confident with my own work and accepted that sometimes my drawings would and will turn bad(for my taste), I take it as a lesson and will study more to see what really went wrong. Before this, I didn't even realize this, I would just get secretly pissed for a long time if someone said anything bad about my art. So how is my personal view on my own art today? I really don't know. I can see that my progress could have even been better but it can sometimes go one month between each time I draw , so for me, it's only for fun, and not fame(nothing bad about the last one, if you want to make a living from it, becoming noticed is important). By at least changing my bad artistic attitude, I learn something everytime I draw.
So to all you people out there, step out of the comfortzone and try to evolve by taking small risks, accepting failure, study some theory to learn basic understanding of whatever you want to get better at(anatomy, shading, shadows, construction, finishing etc.). Take small increments at a time and know this: A lot of the more popular artists here at dA has worked immensely hard to arrive at the level they are. These things don't come entirely for free, which I sorta thought for some three years ago. Never give up and take the time you need. Speed-drawing is in my opinion a gift some people possess, I am not one of them and I have read comments from professional digital artists who also say that they're not able to speed draw a human with good anatomy in just two hours. You can't master everything. That's a part of life. Art should in its basic form be fun and is nothing else than a form of expression. We are all one in this community!